I feel like one of the problems with accepting Christ at such a young age is that you cannot come to a full understanding of the problem of sin. My sin has fails to be a big deal to me sometimes, and because of that, I don't understand my inability to change myself or to be better than I am now. I tend to approach my life with a "white-knuckle" or "I can try harder" mentality, where I constantly try to make people happy, and I consistently fail in my efforts to be a better person for that reason. I'm learning that in my relationship with God it is not about how hard I try or what my efforts can achieve.
"In the great exchange between you and God the only thing you bring to the table is your sin that makes salvation necessary" - Matt Chandler
Understanding how little I bring to the table makes my need for Christ a great deal, and my need for him to change me even greater. I have been feeling weary lately in my attempt to pursue God. I've been trying to be better by reading my Bible more, and praying more. But I will fail, I will slip up.
The only way I can become more like Jesus, is if he changes me. I couldn't do anything to save myself, and I am still powerless to make myself better. Jesus is the only one who can change me, and it starts with me fixing my eyes on him.
This has become a monumentally more difficult/simple process all at the same time, since moving to Kansas. I don't have any of the distractions that I used to have when I left Florida, but at the same time my heart still feels like it needs those things, when all it really needs is Jesus.
Please be praying that my eyes would not be looking for comfort, security, or joy in anything but Jesus. I want to become more like Jesus, in efforts to be the man Jesus is calling me to be.
John3:30
-Daniel
PS: I really enjoyed Skyping with some friends from Lakeland and Tallahassee this week! If you want to Skype sometime, text me! 785-409-4782
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